In my arms

He was in my arms,..

How I held him soo tightly.

Kissed his forehead..

His cheeks.

How soft he felt.

Memorizing every part of him, for I knew it would be my last.

I held him for as long as I could.

It would be my last.

Our last time...together.

His heart beating no more.

In my arms, my hands searching, feeling..

Confirming what Inkew in my soul what just happened.

He left me. He has to go..

his body gave way.

To know how life gives you wonderful lives you share with and see them part.

How Inkosses his forehead.

Kissed his cheeks.

Felt his head against mine.

Memorizing.

How I miss him.

My close friend,

my confidante,

my little boy.

My little protector.

How I miss feeling you close to me.

How I relished this day to arrive, and now it has.

In a way, I was learning to be apart from you,

And now, I am walking forward with only the memory of having you shared your life with me.

And I'm saddened, but grateful for it.

To my little boy,

2 months, mommy loves you so.

Always my Choobie.